So far, I have met and performed in behalf of 8 out of 16 of my mirrors. (Go here to see the list of all my 16 mirrors).
Recently I sat on a couch with my "self healer" mirror. Our reasons for healing are different, and our wounds are unique to our individual stories. But the tears are the same. We looked one another in the eyes and simply...felt. There was no sense that needed to be made of our pain, no logic, no promises of it getting better, and no trying to fix it.
I have been working on a song for her for over two years. She commissioned me to write it as a way to help heal her heart. Draft after draft went by the wayside. I took the task very seriously. It wasn't just a commissioned song...she was asking me to participate in a ceremony of her innermost healing. I committed to it, and by doing so, I promised myself I would connect to my own feelings of loss and pain, and write from that place.
And I did.
The words and melody are simple, and I absolutely love the finished product. But what made us both weep as we sat on that couch was that our pain was simply being seen and witnessed, with each other as our mirror. The song played like a soundtrack for two hearts feeling safe to experience the true healing of pure, rich vulnerability.
Because of this tour, I was able to sing the song to her in person, face to face. Afterward, we cried a little, we smiled in soft tones, and for a few moments we sat on the couch, sniffling, and said absolutely nothing at all.
1 comment:
Hi, Emily
Just read your latest entry in your blog. Altho you and I have had a very short time together to get to know each other, I am glad you are allowing me to "shadow" you on your journey. Every post you do both adds to the wonderful mystery of you and also sheds a bit more light on who you are. Your openness to the depths of your heart astounds not only me, but I believe also anyone you had present before you in one of your concerts, or even in a casual conversation. Like me, others would love to get to know you much better! You are like a little windstorm, you come in, stir things up and rearrange things a bit, then leave, but what you leave behind is much better than it was before.
Leonard Cohen had a song where the lyrics were "there is a crack, a crack in everything, that's how the light gets in" and he is referring to peoples' vulnerabilities and the fact that the hard outer shell everyone carries with them to protect themselves from further hurt and pain does have a crack where the light can get in! It's a healing light. It is the light that can transform you for the better. That was your "Mirror Self".
With you, that openness and allowing others to see your vulnerability and your ability to share with others your pain openly is the crack that allows your light to shine on others. And they respond. They respond because they can see just how well you have dealt with the pain and sorrow and have become the vibrant, wonderful person you are that they now see before them.
A truly beautiful post, my friend.
Thank you for sharing You with Us.
Love
Bill
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