Rise.

"Emily,

Rise.

You are a great many things.
I must tell you, however, that I see more."

(I know. I feel it too.)

"I challenge you to rise. Rise to the next level, one step up. It requires you to shake off a little laziness, indifference, and complacency from all your comfortable corners... You are being called forward to live Purity... Will you take the challenge?"

(It's 12:47 a.m. I'm comfortable. I love these pajamas. So soft and warm. I'm looking forward to curling up in bed tonight with the third book in the Chronicles of Narnia series. I'm more attached to C.S. Lewis than I am Queen Susan or King Edmund, so I continue to read. In between the silence of this sleeping house, the late hour and the comfort of my awaiting bed, my soul is asking me a pretty important question. I give my answer...)

(Sweet Soul, I will not mock you with false promises or committments. But I heard you. I heard you call me to live my potential. And I feel myself preparing to rise.)

"Well done. You have listened to your heart tonight. So then begin your preparations. And when you are ready, the Universe will be there to support you in every way. The Universe needs pure souls to fight laziness, indifference and complacency. Truth is not found in these corners."

(It's now 1:15 a.m. I want to whine and tell my soul that I like just being lazy. I want to point out to her all the great things I've done, and am doing, and hope that can be enough. She's pretty hard core, though. And she gets it. She knows who I have the capacity to be, so she won't take my whines for long. One reason why I like C.S. Lewis as an author is because he puts names to all the voices in my head: (my Pursuits, my Pain, my Joy, my Loyalties, my Excuses...) and then asks me, "Ok, now that you have nothing more to whine about, what do you want to Be?"

From where I'm sitting, I can see this next step up. It's beautiful up there. I wonder if I'm afraid to rise...


1:35 a.m. ......................

1:40 a.m. ......................................

...the responsibility becomes greater....

1:44 a.m............................

...but the Purity in me would be more vibrant with colors...

1:46 a.m..............................

.....T h e U n i v e r s e k n o w s m y n a m e......

1:51 a.m.......................

Suddenly....

...even with these soft pajamas....

on this step....






...I'm not so comfortable.