Coming this Autumn

I'm coming home soon. I'm almost done here. This is one of the best summers of my life. I reflect upon each day and relish it as if it was my last... as if I was dying. And autumn brings with it the delicate blend of the crispness of nostalgia and the smooth breezes of change.

I'm going to graduate school in the fall. I think about the fall all the time now. Riding through the Korean country side on Saturday on a bus, I looked out the window for three hours and... thought. I will know no one. I will be the most poor I have ever been. Everything I own will be in my car. I will be far from my Portland home. It was a significant moment on that bus for me on Saturday. I have been scared of graduate school for as long as I knew it existed back in high school. Now I'm taking it on. I feel like a champ. And on that bus, I exchanged my deep fear for something better. I even remember sitting more upright in my seat when I figured it out. I decided that I'm going to be the starr of my grad program. I decided that it's not going to be someone else.

It's going to be me.

I'm going to succeed hard core, I've decided that just on Saturday. Fear must take its bow.

What will you exchange fear for in your life coming this autumn?